good thing Kevin called to tell me he clipped a deer on way to work....cause I forgot to set my alarm and was sleeping like a pro.

the dream: I was on a trip, every time I bought a Pepsi, it was in a glass bottle and I dropped it and broke it. and I couldn't find my shoes. but I was walking through the surf, guess I didn't really need them. I'd run into people and be all "we gotta get a picture!" but I didn't have my cell phone...all I had was a 110 camera. I was lonely and saw Kevin in a cafe window eating. he was looking down. I just walked away....dreams are weird. does this mean I feel disconnected? I saw him in the dream several other times and he looked through me like I wasn't there...but these friends could see me. hmmmm. I often feel insignificant.

got a message that Mom is in KC hospital with brain bleed, but 'all looks well.' stopped by her house to lock up. couldn't find the spare key. not sure how many cats in the house I let in were hers. but did get a phone chat with Brenda out of the deal. hopefully she comes home today. I feel bad, she's all alone going through scary health issues. she is a capable, strong woman. but it has to be very hard.

had a rough night the other night...kept waking up dry heaving dramatically thinking I was gonna die. but I didn't. and went to work. Terry missed her train, so it was a hard day. took the kids car shopping and to Pizza Hut. home. straight to bed. draggin' ass for reals. want to see Annabelle. need a night at home doing nothing. decisions, decisions. guess I better get my ass to work. no rest for the wicked.