dave and mel came and got their stuff out of our basement! I scootched stuff over and now there's an empty spot! think I'll just hang my last piece of creepy cloth on the blank wall and continue displaying stuff ...
the combo of ivy dry shower scrub and benadryl is knocking the itch down. tomorrow is the big Dr. appt. day and I'm not very excited. getting told how fat I am and how I can not be fat gets old. every fat person is different. I just hope I don't start bawling. which is my go to when I am PISSED. it's gonna be a long fucking day.
completed the 5 days of 10,000 steps in July.
I reserved a queen room (saved some $) on the very haunted 4th floor. The Cowboy Suite (Room428) was available....but like $700. with this room, I can hopefully prowl about the hallways and take pics of haunted doors...217. 401. 407. 428. I can't believe that Deb Dailey of Mercer, MO will be in The freakin' Stanley Hotel! as a guest! and also for a tour the night before. I hope Kevin was serious when he texted me to call them. cause whoops, there it is!
I've been watching the reels. The TikToks. I am trying to give myself grace. to accept myself as I am. to know that pushing myself too hard trying to get quicker results makes it harder. that I might not have enough lifetime left to 'fix' all my unhealthy habits and choices. to take it one day at a time. to sit down before I have a massive coronary. at the park. on the asphalt trail. with the ants and roly polys crawling over me. kids ramping their bikes over me. other walkers stepping around me. someone calling Kevin at work. I don't know if I will ever love myself. I want to. I just don't know how. I don't know if I can even continue the Axsom motto of "it is what it is." so I sat down. twice. the world didn't stop. no one saw me do it. I wouldn't judge another walker taking a break. but I'll condemn myself for it.
where oh where has my friend shaped like me gone? oh where, oh where can she be? she's been missing from my WalkFit workout 2 days now, where oh where could she be? she's still on the dance workout. thank sasquatch.
visited Izzy for a while. then home for graham crackers and peanut butter for lunch. cause it sounded good and I'm an adult. got the urge to try a leap. and I kinda did a couple. and these shorts were snug when I got them. now they're comfortable. I've also had the urge to do short jogs up and down the hallway. huh.
Council Bluffs, IA
visited June 26 2025. bucket list ✔️
dark and gloomy outside. chatty docent. $10 admission. bought book, t-shirt, postcard. fascinating place. prisoners wore their own clothes. you showered in your clothes. no laundry facilities in early days. mainly men. but also women, juveniles, children. cells tiny. some of jail still being set up. top floor is an apartment with beautiful windows. Lots of prisoner injuries from sticking body parts thru bars when cage turned. short term prisoners bottom floor. booking and kitchen bottom floor. longer term prisoners second floor. longest on third floor. 849 steps.
Omaha NE
visited June 28, 2025. this was on my bucket list. ✔️ The owner was very friendly. so. much. stuff. lifelong collector of the unusual. ask him - maybe it's for sale. majority has no prices. medical devises. prosthetic leg. prosthetic arm. bones. human skulls. fetuses in jars. medical specimens. had trouble finding rental space for business. landlords superstitious. religious. too many rules. so he found this fabulous old house that was once a mortuary. He lives upstairs with his family, big dog, cats, birds. appears to be still setting up downstairs. knows a lot about John Wayne Gacy art. has opinions about the Museum of Shadows. working on it one day being a museum. I like this guy. He's a kindred spirit. I bought an antique matted photo of someones casket covered in flowers. For $30. he made change right outta his pocket. is it haunted? time will tell. it was 198 steps from front door back out to truck. yes. I'm a WalkFit girl now.
he said most of his animal oddities were from local Nebraska farmers. as a former hog barn gal, I saw some defects. cleft palates. organs outside body. wiggly jiggly sack pigs. extra legs. extra noses. one giant eye. no back legs. no front legs. they all went in dead bags. I didn't have formaldehyde. or big enough specimen jars. and I'm a bit of a chicken shit. that's probably be viewed as stealing from the company. coulda made a killing selling at Oddities and Curiosities...just sayin.
a bit drizzly. cooler. took Z her chair and books. Izzy was having a blast with the chair. Z was a bit unsure but trying. filled fuel tank on trailer, ice cream for lunch. picked up Rip. groceries at Unionville Hy-Vee. I blew a rod trying to log into MyChart. I was sure I had already done this. but had to create an account. idk. I was bound and determined not to call the help # and by ad there, I did not.
