today our little family increased by a green John Deere mower...

and bless his heart, Kevin wanted to go to Walmart where I bought more white thread, and now my Lake Monster block is finished and I am feeling accomplished. The Scooby Snacks are not going so well. figured out that my fingers don't want to embroider. and cutting out tiny letters to sew on isn't looking so good with 2 letters on. hopefully it'll improve. or I'll just scrap it. or just sew on doggy treats? hmmmmm.

stopped by to check on Mom and Lisa and deliver something that might help in recovery. Mom is furious that I think she can't stay home alone. which is a good sign that she's feeling fiesty. so, told her I'd pick her up tomorrow when Lisa left, bring her here, and take her home Tuesday night or Wednesday a.m. if I thought she was getting up and down ok. Axsom's are stubborn. so are Brown's. Kevin and Russell had a conference. if Mom is staying in that house....Kevin told Lisa & I if The Sisters are Allowing Mom to stay in the house...like we could fucking stop her (insert eye roll and deep deep deep sigh here) the roof has to be replaced. Russell just keeps finding more bad spots. he'll get an estimate. we'll collectively come up with Money. Kevin & I both kinda have a feeling Mom is going to leave the house to Russell. he knows it as well as his own. he's spent plenty of time over there visiting and checking in and doing handy man work. maybe it's wishful thinking. that would be SO much easier than trying to get it fixed up enough to sell. that is something I don't feel I need in my life. I have a lotta feelings. some deep dark evil ones. trying to be a good person and keep my mouth shut but it ain't easy peasy lemon squeezy. I just don't see why.....look. there I go again. shhhhhhhhhhh.........

at lunch Kevin checked his phone and a guy we both went to school with just died. it is always thought provoking when you hear someone your age or younger has died. life is uncertain. every day is a gift.